I’m stuck, and it sucks. I did so much throughout the years, but not even close to what I wanted to achieve. Having 7 companies can feel like a great success, but in reality, 90% of the time is spent worrying about everything and working on things that could not change the world.
I keep hearing: who are you to change the world, and why do you want to anyway?
What else should I do? I’m an atheist. I don’t believe in fairytales, but I believe in good, and I want to do good, that's my calling. I would love to create stuff that could help somebody in any way, be it small or big. A long time ago, it was making games, and I created a ton of them. People played them, and I had a community, but it was the wrong time and the wrong place - the balkans. I had no connections, and startup as a term didn’t even exist back then, so it was really hard to find like-minded people who could help in any way.
But then life happened. I couldn’t live off my parents, so I started working for others. It didn’t take too long for me to quit and start my own company with friends. Then I entered THE BIG SLEEP, a period of life where you have the responsibility to make money for yourself, your employees, and the government, and no freaking time to build, cook, or craft for the big dream. No progress at all, other than experience in business, sales, and things. Great, I have things: Teslas, apartments, terrains, consoles, phones, tablets, you name it; but I’m mentally poor.
LLMs (AI) allowed me to finally break out. I started building again, and building fast. I don’t care how much it costs. They could charge as much as they want for all I care, but I’m not missing or leaving this opportunity. I would rather sell my companies and all I have, than not having these tools, which WOKE ME UP.
I WILL make games again, web services, micro and macro, alone or with friends who want to join. I WANT to create physical devices that could save lives or entertain people, to create happiness. My companies should have been that tool, but unless some good samaritan (read: investor) comes to cover the salaries, I have to do the hard work.
You'll be hearing more from me. Now let's start shipping! 🏴☠️
This blog post was written like I was spitting it out because I fought myself not to write it, so this is better than nothing. Change is happening, and I’m staying on this new/old route. I would love your support, whoever you are, investing your time in reading this blob of text. I thank you. ❤️ No AI was used in writing this.